Self-Respect

“

If you are a woman, if you’re a person of colour, if you are gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, if you are a person of size, if you are a person of intelligence, if you are a person of integrity, then you are considered a minority in this world.

…And it’s going to be really hard to find messages of self-love and support anywhere. Especially women’s and gay men’s culture. It’s all about how you have to look a certain way or else you’re worthless. You know when you look in the mirror and you think ‘oh, I’m so fat, I’m so old, I’m so ugly’, don’t you know, that’s not your authentic self? But that is billions upon billions of dollars of advertising, magazines, movies, billboards, all geared to make you feel shitty about yourself so that you will take your hard earned money and spend it at the mall on some turn-around creme that doesn’t turn around shit.

When you don’t have self-esteem you will hesitate before you do anything in your life. You will hesitate to go for the job you really wanna go for, you will hesitate to ask for a raise, you will hesitate to call yourself an American, you will hesitate to report a rape, you will hesitate to defend yourself when you are discriminated against because of your race, your sexuality, your size, your gender. You will hesitate to vote, you will hesitate to dream. For us to have self-esteem is truly an act of revolution and our revolution is long overdue.

”

—	Margaret Cho

I had read this and could not agree anymore than what was stated. I originally planned to do a video rant on my youtube but felt it to be more appropriate to write in a post. This life has so much negativity, sometimes for myself personally, I wish to join the Peace Corps, go to a country that most people read about, and live in a society that is primitive yet essentially happy in all respects and simplicity. Its weird seeing people around me, especially kids with all the latest gear, tech, etc and seeing how unhappy they still are yet knowing my family back home and in countries and places where they may not have access to these things still be happy is weird to me. Its funny how my parents came to this country for a "better" life yet are we really better living in a place that will only bring us down as human beings? Is it worth working and searching for a means to be able to buy a persons acceptance?

A revolution is certainly overdue...

Life, Quality.

The quality of your life will be in direct proportion to the degree of uncertainty you can comfortably live with.

-Anthony Robbins

Just Like You by Lecrae (N.V.A.)

@Lecrae

A little rant on "grown people"

Note that I am breaking character to write this.

It is not necessary frustration that I write this but rather sadness that I am writing this. When you are "grown" and  you have children that look up to you, is it truly unreasonable that you serve to be a role model of sorts to them, at the very least, be a positive example?

I am saddened to say that this post is based on the actions of one individual previously from my iMusickk dance group.

If you don't know, I work with children using dance to reach out and minister to kids. The fact that he was upset because my pastors have told him to take responsibilities for himself when nobody else will is his own problem and that's fine. If this person wants to stay in that child-like mentality, more power to him and God Bless. The fact that he is going out of his way to talk shit about a church that tried to help him when nobody else would, is a little pathetic to be honest.

In the small chance that you come across this sir, know that these kids that you are deterring from maybe the only positive environment that they can be a part of just so you can have a friend or two, or by revealing things that are unbecoming to children just to feel accomplish, know that in the chance that they may fine Christ or in the very least come out better then where their parents are at right now, you're leading them down  
a path of self-destruction though I doubt you honestly care about your 'friends' and their well-being.

Honestly, God Bless and I am constantly praying for you because you seem like an upstanding role model and leader.

Sincerely,
Christopher.
"Dance Teacher, Youth Pastor, and friend.

P.E.A.C.E.

Proper
Education
Always
Counters
Exploitation

The Religion of Ignorance

Racism is the religion of the ignorant man...

Update (8/24/11)

Well its been forever since I've posted on here and I sincerely apologize. I've been busy preparing for school and that has actually been alot more stressful than I anticipated but I'm finally ready for school. Just gotta wait for these books to come in. I'm currently choreographing the dance team with Truth in Motion and have joined their step team as well (hoping to have a video of that reasonably soon). I am still choreographing my kids group, kidSOUL and am working diligently to rebuild my group, iMusickk.

As far as videos go, I will start to produce a video at least once every two weeks to give everyone subscribed a chance to view my latest videos but to also give myself time to come up with a new video idea.

On a side note, if you need a new cell phone for possibly cheaper, click me (lame self promotion I know).

I will also be uploading this blog, twitter, tumblr, facebook, and cafepress.

As a little reward for viewing and reading this, below are some recent pictures of myself and how long my hair     has grown. Lemme know if I should keep my hair like this though o.o

High School Regrets(ish)

Excuses

Excuses are the tools of incompetency that build monuments of nothingness...

-Unknown

Why I haven't been making any videos as of late...

I felt as though I needed to address this because I understand there are many people that view my material and out of love and respect, I am typing this post.

I am personally going through a transitional phase right now and it conflicts with what my parents see for me and what I see for myself. I understand that they only want what's best for me but at the same time, I am trying to stand on my own two feet and make the correct decisions regarding myself and those immediate to me. I have my mother who will barely look at me, let alone say hello to me. I have my father who is being extremely strict upon me and close-minded about my choices. I tolerate all of this because I was raised to be very family-oriented as well as respectful in honoring my parents (for those that don't know, I am Christian) but it tries my patience in doing what I believe is correct (in regards to the kids I teach, the material I put out online, the people I associate with, etc.) and being brought down to feel less of a person because of my morals and beliefs. I will always have love for my parents (and for those that aren't as fortunate to have that luxury, I truely pray for) but it comes to deciding between biting my tongue to respect my parents wishes and becoming a man of God and living out a life that I believe I should be living.

This is just some stuff that has been on my mind, if you don't agree with my viewpoints, I will not force that upon you. I am an extremely open-minded Christian and if you decide not to follow me on here, youtube, etc because of the words or opinions expressed within this post, I understand but know that these emotions that are evoked are out of love, not spite for all those that read this.

God bless.
With love,
Christopher "Chrispy AKA Kon" Phiouthong

Flashback Joint #1

My song of the moment...

The Difference Between Flirtatious and Friendly from me.

:)

Too Old to Dream...

What happened to being young?

What happened to dreaming of changing the world for the better?

What happened to dreaming of going into space?

What happened to those dreams of traveling the world?

What happened to seeing what this life had to offer?

Are we so concerned with the security of our current present to be able to leap into the unknown with the possibility of failing, knowing it may open the eyes of our hearts for the better?

Are we, just too old to dream anymore?...

Something's missing...

I feel like something's missing. I have a truely blessed life. My family, friends, gf, kids, jobs, and all give me such fulfillment but it seems to not be enough. I feel like I was meant for more...

My ultimate dream is to be a signed performer/singer/dancer. It always will. I feel like I have never been given that opportunity to shine but I believe I can. Fame, money, perks can all pass me. I just want the piece of mind that comes with reaching one's fullest potential.
I live content. I come home and dream of the day when I can have that piece of mind. I sing and dance til my vocal chords can't and my body gives hoping that maybe God may bless me with an opportunity that has been given to all others that look and are nothing like me...

Life.

Life = Not how you weather the storm, but how you dance in the rain.

-Unknown

Parody of Me xD

So I have a tumblr...

and you should totally check it out :)

Kobe Bryant is, "The Black Mamba". Directed by Robert Rodriguez.

Something I found that was pretty cool, in a weirdly funny way :)

Storytelling: The Aspiring Student Performer

There was a student performer who faced the end of his educational career. He was given the task of assembling an audience for his final recital. When the day came, he and his teacher stood upon stage facing an empty auditorium. The teacher, who would've introduced the student to his final performance, questioned his motive for the lack of an audience. He responded...

"I came here, not necessarily to pass but to learn, develop, interpret, and to

explore the depth of my potential musical imagination. I have come to find

that an audience's physical presence does not justify a musical statement's

existence but rather spreads it. I would not like to become a performer that

performs for the applause of that audience but rather to have my God-given

voice portray the simplicity and complexity that exists in each corner of my

fabricated sense of that which is defined as music. I wish that my voice join

others that have been expressed here, alongside the very instruments that have

,as tools, portrayed the statements of others, all lead by the conductors that have

bended the time of pieces into shapes which we cannot explain but are rather

drawn to. That is the performer I seek to become."

Although initially failing his last assignment, his teacher came to realize that music is not a subject matter that can be teached but one that can be infinitely explored. That day on, this teacher understood his position not as a teacher or instructor of the word, arts, but rather a student of the performer's final words...

-Christopher "Chrispy AKA Kon" Phiouthong

KonTV Presents Cooking w/ Chrispy AKA Kon: Marinating Chicken

Holy shizz.

Domo Cookies O_O'

kidSOUL Debut Performance (Xmas '10)

So below is the first complete thing I have choreographed as a choreographer. It should be noted that I did have to tone down alot of the choreography for the children but I believe if you are into XMAS and don't mind a different presentation of Jesus, you'll enjoy it :)



Check them out below at:
Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/iMusickkVSkidSOUL
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/kidSOULiMusickk
@kidSOULiMusickk

Inner Thoughts (Not Being Able to Finish Food)

(half a sandwich and some chips left)

Sandwich- haha, you cant finish me, you ate my two brothers but you cant eat me :D

Me- Man, shut up ;.;

Chips- haha, were still here too. Neither your mom, your brother, or YOU, could finish us. HAHA!

Me- (cowers away in a corner)

2 Liter Drink- whatsup b*tch.

The End
xDD