Changes

So within the next couple of weeks, imma be putting myself through some changes. Some of them I don't mind, some of them I do. 

Finish cutting my hair and coloring it. Planning on working towards getting some piercings and tattoos alongside some new clothes as well. 

I really want to be the guy that you show off to your friends. I want to be the guy you want to talk to, to ask how his day is just as an excuse to talk. I want to be the guy who you want to cuddle with. I want to be the guy that you are attracted to. I want to be the guy you fell in love with. 

I'm doing these things, some of them I am deathly scared of, simply because I don't want you to get bored of me. I don't want to lose you. And even though you could do so much better, I wanna be the guy that will continue to surprise you. 

I have never been more self conscious than I am right now but i hope I don't lose you. 

Please don't get bored of me. 

You know what's torture?

Never hearing from you. You never starting a conversation. The torture of when you will be tired of me. The creeping thought of when it will all end. 

Her

I miss our days. Not just any days but days where I thought of you and you thought of me too. Our days. 

I was wrong to make you wait but I did. If I could take it back, I would. But things worked out and we came to be. 

I remember bragging on you to all of my friends and family members. I remember getting the jokes and comments but still proudly calling you mine. I cherished it. I cherished you. 

Then time passed and life happened. 

Slowly school and work crept into our lives. And slowly, it became your life and mine. 

Then, the insecurities came in. 

The paranoia of wondering if there is someone better for you out there, if your attention was no longer for me. Days, even a week or two, no call or text. 

Nothing. 

What is left?

Fear of being too attached? Fear of being a hassle? Fear of being bothersome? Or fear of being less of a man than you deserve because my emotions hold me powerless daily?

Gone are the days of innocence, the joy of being young and in love for you we're the first I truly trusted with my heart, and God willing, the last. 

But may I ask?

Do you still feel the way that I do?

Did you ever?

MIA

So I haven't posted a video up until now this year. Sorry. Yeah I have been a busy guy. Not really. I've just been working, dancing, and in the process of starting a business. But its all good.

Some stuff that has happened to me is that I've dropped out of school this semester to start a business, my dad got shot at (he's ok thank God), my lil bro went to the E.R. (he's ok too, thanks again), still with the girlfriend, and just overall working on new pieces for my personal dance group and the non-profit (Truth in Motion) I work with.

A lil bit but overall pretty plain this year :P
Well below is the vid I uploaded. Regular upload schedule is coming back :)
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